Pamela Anderson will open up about her tumultuous relationship with rocker Tommy Lee in her upcoming memoir, Love, Pamela.
In an insightful extract obtained by People, the Baywatch alum recalls being “crushed” and “devastated” when their marriage ended in 1998, saying it was “the hardest, lowest, most difficult point of my life” and it was “the only time I was ever truly in love”.
Anderson writes that the pressures of having a young family – they share sons Brandon, now 26, and Dylan, now 25 – ultimately strained their relationship and their “hell began” after Lee was arrested for spousal abuse that same year.
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“I still couldn’t believe that the person I loved the most was capable of what had happened that night,” she writes of the time she called police on him after the Mötley Crüe drummer repeatedly kicked her in the back while she held Dylan, then 11 months old. “We were both devastated, but I had to protect my babies.”
Anderson said she’s “grateful” her sons turned out to have a great relationship with their father despite what transpired.
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However, her relationship with the rocker was not the same after their infamous sex tape was stolen from a safe in their garage and released without their consent in 1995.
The ordeal was the subject of last year’s Hulu miniseries Pam & Tommy.
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“It ruined lives, starting with our relationship – and it’s unforgivable that people, still to this day, think they can profit from such a terrible experience, let alone a crime,” she writes.
Anderson and Lee were married in Cancun, Mexico, after just four days of meeting each other. Their relationship made headlines and their lives played out in the tabloids. But the actress said, “We had fun, and our rule was no rules.”
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