Despite her recent loss, the 33-year-old still performed her acoustic set at The Hotel Cafe in Los Angeles as promised on November 25, saying it would help her in the healing process.
“I was told a long time ago that I couldn’t have children and I never believed it. I don’t believe in lies,” a visibly upset Jessie J told the crowd as she struggled to hold back her tears.
“I decided to have a baby by myself. And then by a miracle it worked for a little while. And yesterday, yeah, yesterday was f–king s–t.”
As she sat on a stool and swayed back and forth to soft music, the ‘Price Tag’ singer reflected on her challenging year. Last December she lost her hearing, which led to a Ménière’s disease diagnosis, and she also lost her voice at one point, which was “f–king awful” as she “didn’t know who [she] was without” it.
“This year has been hands-down the hardest year I’ve ever had to get through … and then I lost my baby,” she said. “I know I’m going to be OK because there is really nothing else to choose in the way I live.
“I wanted to be here tonight because the one thing I believe in the most in this whole entire universe, beyond surface conversations and Instagram and the internet, is being human and being vulnerable and being real.”
In the morning before her show, Jessie J bravely opened up about her miscarriage in a heartbreaking Instagram post.
“I decided to have a baby on my own. Because it’s all I’ve ever wanted and life is short. To get pregnant was a miracle in itself and an experience I will never forget and I know I will have again,” she wrote.
“Im still in shock, the sadness is overwhelming. But I know I am strong, and I know I will be ok.”
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