Warning: This article discusses sexual assault
After being tabloid fodder for most of her career, Pamela Anderson is finally telling her story in her own words.
The actress and model is set to release her memoir, Love, Pamela, and a Netflix documentary, Pamela, A Love Story, on January 31.
In an interview with the New York Times, Anderson says the book covers “beginning to end, my first memory to my last,” all written in her own words, without a ghostwriter.
“It really was life or death,” she told NYT. “I felt I need to tell my story. And I really couldn’t let anybody do it but me.”
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Though Anderson’s memoir has not yet been released, there have been a number of bombshell chapters released ahead of publication. The actress opens up about her early career, speaking out against harassment she allegedly experienced from Hollywood pillars, as well as her many marriages and relationships, including her most infamous one to Mötley Crüe drummer Tommy Lee.
Read on to learn more about what Anderson has revealed so far.
She had a traumatic childhood
Anderson recalls her troubled childhood in her memoir, growing up in Canada with an alcoholic and abusive father and a mother who was unsuccessful in leaving him, making for an “unbearable” adolescence.
She also details many instances of being abused, with a female babysitter molesting her for 3-4 years, being raped by a 25-year-old at age 12, and being gang raped by a high school boyfriend and his friends in the back seat of a car.
“I didn’t tell anybody,” she writes about the traumatic events. “I just blocked it out.”
She was discovered in her early 20s at a football game, when cameras spotted her and put her on the Jumbotron. Playboy soon discovered her and she was on her way to Hollywood.
She tried to regain control of her sexuality with Playboy photoshoots
Anderson’s career launched with Playboy, with the actress now holding the record for the most covers done by any Playboy model. The most famous of her photoshoots were the ones she did nude, which she clarifies was her attempt to regain control of her sexuality.
“It was my choice,” she wrote, but she also admits that it “gave some people the impetus, sadly, to treat me without respect.”
She also writes about her naivety when she got the opportunity to star in Baywatch, saying she had not agent or management and didn’t know how to create more success for herself, especially since it was her breakout role.
“I was a little girl from Canada coming here and running on a beach,” she writes. “Like, how would you think that would make any money?”
She comments that she never felt that she was able to “really show what I am capable of” in her role as C.J Parker.
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She claims Tim Allen flashed her on set, which he denies
In an excerpt of the memoir obtained by Variety, Anderson writes that Tim Allen, her co-star on Home Improvement, flashed her on her first day of filming, when she was 23 years old.
The Baywatch star recounts, “On the first day of filming, I walked out of my dressing room, and Tim was in the hallway in his robe. He opened his robe and flashed me quickly – completely naked underneath.
“He said it was only fair because he had seen me naked. Now we’re even. I laughed uncomfortably.”
The Home Improvement star has since responded to the allegations, denying to TMZ that he ever “flashed” Anderson.
“No, it never happened. I would never do such a thing,” he told the outlet.
Anderson promptly responded to his denial, telling Vanity Fair just hours after Allen’s statement that she held “no ill will” towards the older actor.
“This true story is just one of many surreal and uncomfortable situations I learned to navigate,” she told the publication. “My book goes into how it made me feel over the course of my life and, in this case, my career. I have no ill will toward Tim. But like the rest, it should never have happened.”
Anderson played Allen’s sidekick Lisa the Tool Time Girl for two seasons of Home Improvement, starting from the pilot episode in 1991. She starred in 23 episodes before leaving in 1992 to star in Baywatch, which launched her to stardom.
Sylvester Stallone wanted to make her his ‘No. 1 girl’
Hollywood star Sylvester Stallone is also mentioned in leaked excerpts of the memoir, with the Blonde and Blonder star writing that Stallone offered her a condo and Porsche in return for being his “No. 1 girl.
“And I was like: ‘Does that mean there’s a No 2?'” she writes.
Stallone’s lawyer Marty Singer has since responded to the claims, saying that Stallone says, “I never made any portion of the statement. It’s completely untrue.”
Tommy Lee was the only person she was ever in love with
Anderson’s relationship and marriage with Mötley Crüe drummer Tommy Lee is considered her most infamous, despite the actress being married another five times.
The pair sensationally married on a beach in Cancun just four days after meeting in 1995, with Anderson famously donning a white bikini for the ceremony.
However, the relationship was marred soon after it begun, with Lee and Anderson’s honeymoon tape being stolen and released as a sex tape.
“It ruined lives, starting with our relationship…” she writes, according to an excerpt obtained by People.
She also recounts the breakdown of their marriage, particularly when Lee was arrested for spousal abuse in 1998.
She says that Lee didn’t like being “third now instead of first,” referring to their young sons, Brandon and Dylan, who were then aged one and seven weeks old respectively.
He allegedly said, “I want my wife back”, to which Anderson told him to “grow up” and give her “some f—ing help around here… It’s not about you anymore.”
Anderson then alleges that Lee “ripped Brandon off me and threw me and Dylan into a wall.”
Anderson says she called emergency services and filed for divorce the day after Lee was arrested for spousal abuse, with the musician spending six months in jail over the incident.
She recalls that time as being “the hardest, lowest, most difficult point” of her life.
“I still couldn’t believe that the person I loved the most was capable of what had happened that night,” she writes. “We were both devastated, but I had to protect my babies.”
Despite all that occurred, she writes, “My relationship with Tommy may have been the only time I was ever truly in love.”
She refused to watch Pam & Tommy
Much of Anderson’s life was recently brought back into the spotlight with the Hulu series Pam & Tommy, which was released last year. The miniseries saw Sebastian Stan take on the role of Lee, while actress Lily James played Anderson.
Though Anderson says she did not watch the series, she did hear about it, particularly about how the series highlighted the release of the honeymoon tape as a sex tape, commenting.
“It was already hurtful enough the first time,” she writes. “It’s like one of those things where you’re going, ‘Really? People are still capitalising off that thing?'”
She also says James sent her a handwritten letter asking to speak about how she could honour Anderson in her portrayal.
The former Playboy model, however, said she did not even read James’ letter, and that “a scanned copy of that letter still sits in [Anderson’s] inbox somewhere, unread.”
Both Love, Pamela and Pamela: A Love Story will be released on January 31, 2023.
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